Dropping by…

Even though it is a two months holiday for me, I still hardly find some time to spend with this blog of mine. I was tempted by too many entertainments around me and most of them are computer games. Dragon Nest, Pokemon Soul Silver Version, the usual weekly Project-D, and many more. The holiday weekdays for me were like … Work from 1p.m. till 11p.m. –> Online (Computer gaming) from 11p.m. till 4a.m. –> Hit my bed by 4a.m. until the next afternoon. Lifeless isn’t it?

Luckily the weekend wasn’t as dull as the working routine I’m having. Just last Sunday, me and my gang of colleagues were joined as part of the organizer of the Klang area Kumon Advanced Student Honor Roll 2011 and it was a rather different experience than handling the students from different branches outside the centre.

And yeah, I finally got the time to fool around with my Long-Isolated-Double-O.

Christmas is coming soon enough, but it doesn’t apply any special meaning to me anyway. A celebration? I’m too old to tuck myself into the crowd who celebrates the countdown of Christmas at those celebration hotspots. Staying at Klang sounds more reasonable for me. Still, I have a wish to be granted before 2012 occurs – to get myself a much decent mobile phone. But of course I’m not telling this to Mr.Santa(like he really exist), I intended to get one using my own capability with what I currently possessed. Some motivation to start a new year I guess.

That’s all for this time, hope I’ll have the time to drop by again as soon as possible…

To Heaven and Hell

I had been to heaven this morning, and went straight down to hell before afternoon. It doesn't seems that high quality product will be in my hand anyway. It is always owned by someone else before me. Bah~

Hence...

I got myself a DSLR...
And I named it... Double-O
Full name, Canon EOS 1100D.

And it's freaking awesome~ XD

Paying A Little Visit to My Blog

It has been a while since my last post here. Kind of have some a guilty feel toward my blog. Haha! But can't help it, the new college life style seriously beats me. So tiring and hectic and hardly have time to blog. Moreover, keeping myself update on Facebook is quite time consuming.

Had one of the greatest breakthrough in my life during last semester, participated an act on a drama play on stage. Never expected that I could overcome the stage phobia. Previously I was intended to write the full process of the practices, rehearsals, and about the play. However, the enthusiasm had somehow lost. There are some videos that could describe the whole story though. I will upload them once I get a copy of those.

I have something to consider deeply recently, to purchase a DSLR for my very own self! Budget is of course the first thing I have to consider about. Then comes to which model to choose. Canon EOS 1100D(many people using), Nikon D3000(hot stuff), or Olympus E-620(personal preference).

Really hope I can come out with a fine plan where I can fulfill both my desire and need in the same time. Decision making...

Imbalance

I had been tried to seek out the balance in the time spending with my friends and my family all the while. Can say almost every weekend I had my dinner with my friends instead of with my family. Meanwhile, in between friends, I have to make different balance when dealing with different group of friends with different interest. It gave me such an headache sometimes when the organizing goes wrong and everything were blamed on me. People speak words that they don’t actually mean it for joking purpose but it will somehow lay an impact to those they spoken to if the words were harsh to them. It’s not easy to be the middle man to balance things up however it always me who got involved.

Back to the family part, I spent most of my time outside and during the time at home I’d just cling myself in front of the computer. I always got screwed by my dad that the home is just like a place for me to sleep only. Went for outings late at night, three to four p.m only come home. Simply because I can’t get a hold on my own time management. If I have my very own transport, I could easily make a balance on it. New semester started as well, I seriously need to refine my time management skill so that I could actually cope up with it since I see the new semester started in the new campus are rather much hectic than I had expected.

Anyhow, the main issue that had bugging me regarding this topic is still the time spent management with my friends and family. Hanging out with friends are sure fun but since nobody is paying for my expensive, it is somehow like drilling a hole on my own wallet. However keeping myself at home for a long period would have kill me as well. Hence, hanging outside once in a while(but I’m doing it very often) is a must…

Friends, and family… balancing…

Offline

The thunder storm plus heavy rain that had happened last Sunday evening actually killed my TM-net modem with a strike thunderbolt! Consequence, I will not be able to online for several days at home. The VIP pass in Dragon Nest(an online game I play) that valid for 3 days only which I plan to use on Tuesday gone wasted. The only place I can online and get myself updated on what is happening in the internet would be my college only. The new computer lab has finally in operation and I'm using it to make this post. The computer is super fast so does the line here. I wonder when will the students install Warcraft3 Frozen Throne here and making this computer lab a base for Dota purpose.

Cheers~

HELP CAT New Campus

It is my second day here in the new campus. The feel isn’t bad although construction is still going on and the building is still incomplete yet. But I can see in the coming days this campus will be a great one with all the basic facilities equipped. It is better than I expected. Too bad I don’t have a camera to get some snapshots to show what I see here. Maybe next time, after I get myself a new camera.

Until here this time, cheers…

I Had Spent A Lot Lately

As the burden of assignments, presentations, and exams were lifted off, I can’t help myself to indulge myself in more outings with my friends although it hurts my wallet a lot. Those outings really made my day.

Let’s talk about last Monday which is a replaced holiday for labour’s day. Jason Lee suggested to have a day out at places like Sunway or Damansara and he will be the driver of the day. But things changed and we happened to fetch Her Seng to work and obtained his Fagala(SagaFL) as our transport of the day(wonderful isn’t it?) as he will not be using it until the end of the week. We catch our lunch at Burger King but Juin Giap were not hungry. Our main objective was to watch Thor at GSC One Utama. Before the show starts, we went for another lunch session at Carl’s Junior because JG has reached his hungry state. Jeffre and his friends happened to join us for a short arcade session but as time were not enough, I still have four unused tokens in my wallet. I’m looking forward for the coming Friday night battle of Initial D Arcade Stage 6 AA with Jeffre.

The movie, Thor, was nice. Excellent graphic, another Marvel’s hero on the screen, splendid. You watch you will know, I got nothing to complaint about. We head back to Klang for dinner after that, and after the dinner, we did something that we have not been doing for a very long time – Project D! Miraculously, Boon Kiat and Sam joined us under the invitation of Eugene. I was pawned badly in the games of 3 vs 3, but that doesn’t matter, the true value is that we still can gather together for a gaming session which I thought could hardly be done recently as everyone has their own life to catch.

Today is Wednesday, no work. A karaoke session has been organized by JG at Greenbox. Greenbox karaoke system has more J-pop selection comparing to Neway, hence I selected those songs familiar to me without hesitation. We had our crazy time there along with Trace Lim, BS the God, and Desmond Yong. We chill ourselves out at Starbucks with the 50% discounted Frappuccino after that. The sensation was great, it would be more fantastic if there were someone special to share with.With such offer, I don’t mind treating someone worthy, but I guess it won’t happen because the offer last until May 6, 2011 only.

Consider all the activities I’ve done, you might be able to imagine how much I had spent in just two days. It’s not over yet, later will have another movie at MBO, Fast and Furious 5. Well, I shall treat this as a tiny reward for myself before the new semester starts.

Dear Blog...

How I wish to paint you with colors again~

Got no photos to upload or any particular story to tell~

Re-ignition

I thought I had set myself free from the stubborn mind set after the fruitless confession 2 months ago. Simply by indulging myself more spontaneously in my connection with girls and did not text the particular her anymore. However, one single text message by her which is totally unexpected could bind myself back to the thinking back then before I confess.

A message asking for car-pooling which is so common in a normal friendship but it is enough to set my heart in a burning status as I’m no longer living near by her. It may sound ridiculous to go all the way from SP to KU but it’s simply irresistible as I do wish she can be on the passenger seat once again. At last, I agree to fetch her without exposing my living location yet (as she still thinks that I lived in KU).

I reached her place in the expected time (using my dad’s P.Wira) and there she is, on the passenger seat once again. Fortunate enough that the incident I fear the most(which is the total silence in the whole journey) did not happen this time. I’m happy that we get to chat (like friends did) in the whole journey and from this point, I assumed that both of us has changed. Maybe is due to our last meet up in front of her house where both of us agree that being normal friend is better, and it’s happening.

During the party, I laughed, she laughed, everyone laughed. I feel the friendship among us. After the party and sending her home, conversations still on. But in the end, I have to tell her that I no longer living near by and will hardly have the chance for her to carpool me again. However if she really needs help, there will be no excuse for me not to be there as a friend. Bit farewell to her after sending her home safe and sound.

Such happening do fantasized myself a little that I still stand a chance. I’ve been thought about it whole night how wonderful it could be if she really happen to be my girl. What if I confess to her again? So I texted her in the next day, pathetic enough that there’s no reply from her until now. I guess it’s time for me to get back to the reality that “She is not the one”.

Tsk tsk tsk…

A ForgetFOOL Friday

I had one of the most forgetful Friday in my life last week.

Morning – I forgot to bring my cell phone together with me when I’m out from my house. Consequence, I have to use my mom’s cell phone that day.

Afternoon – I’ve been working on my assignment draft on a piece of rough paper. By lunch hour, I rushed out from the computer lab and left my draft there. I notice it long after I finished my lunch and that was about evening time.

Evening – Trying to redo my draft in the computer lab again and when it is time to leave and go to work, I left my water bottle there again. Wonderful~

The next day morning – I realised that I have another piece of assignment(which I’ve already done) that need to submit yesterday. But it’s Saturday and the lecturer won’t be around. Great…

What a bloody fucking forgetful Friday… =.=

Chinese New Year 2011

Happy Late Chinese New Year to those who actually reading this. The Chinese New Year atmosphere for this year are rather dull comparing to the previous years. At the very last working day at Kumon, I left my trusty cell phone at my table before we close the centre. I realise that after I reach my house. Imagine a life without cell phone and no internet line in your house, Wonderful isn’t it? It gave me and absolute solitude…

As some of my friends know, I’ve just moved out from Klang Utama and my current living place is at Southern Park. Within a time of a month, my whole family have to fully move out from K.U to S.P before Chinese New Year. The preparation are rather rushing and we worked our asses out until the night of Chinese New Year Eve. The reunion dinner was nothing to talk about. Comparing with last year having dinner worth a few hundred ringgit at a pretty grand restaurant with my father side family, we had our reunion dinner at my mother side grandmother’s house this year with some simple dishes only. Such massive changes was caused by a very particular person that trying to monopolize the game and my family were more likely being kicked out from the game.

First day of Chinese New Year, woke up late in the afternoon. Missed out the visiting at Dato’ Lee’s mansion. Someone baked cupcakes there I wasn’t able to taste it. Too bad~ Spent my day one with my family visiting both father and mother side’s grandparents house. Until night time, I get to meet up with my fellow brothers at Teoh’s house. Get to watch some magnificent fireworks! Later on, 8 of us still went for a Project-D session at Blitzone until 3a.m. something. Get to sleep only by 4a.m. something. The next morning still need to wake up early.

Day 2, my birthday also. Get to visit some of my friends in the earlier of the day. Until 4p.m. something, I was rushed by my bro back home to build a new hut for my dogs. We got it done by around 9p.m. After my dinner at my grandma house, a birthday cake was served to celebrate mine and my mom’s birthday. I rushed for a second round at Station1 where my fellow buddies prepared a surprise celebration for me. I appreciated it a lot. The next round was just a chill out session at Jason’s house. We get to go home by around 3 a.m..

Day 3, with ex-librarians. Met up with them at GenSoon’s new house at Meru area. Participants of the day was Me, ChinSiong, GenSoon, NeeJian,  ChingGeok, LihYing, YeeVon, and an unexpected newly recruited member LiQing. And another unexpected incident is they actually prepared another birthday cake for me and also for ChingGeok as her birthday is coming soon as well. ChunFai joined us later on, after that we go on a tour on most of the participants’ house like we did during the past few years. The last stop we visited would be the Kapar area. Those who lived in Klang area went back earlier by around 9p.m.. I unloaded everyone and went to join my fellow brothers for a second round. We rendezvoused at Edward’s house and we to other’s house for a couple more visiting before each of us went home to rest.

Day 4, with Kumon staffs. I had Bak Kut Teh with them in the morning while waiting for Kelvin’s return to his lair. After visiting Kelvin’s house, we went to JG’s open house to feast on the legendary Nasi Lemak prepared by Mrs.Hui. We continue our tour for more visiting while JG & BK joined us later on. By 7.30p.m., we stopped at Ms.Lee’s house for dinner and the participants who made their way until here would be Me, JG, BK, BS, CW, KTF, JE, ML, WL, SY, CY, PY, and AN. The final stop of the day would be ML’s house. We received Andpow from her for the very first since she was just married last year. We dismissed rather early this year by around 1a.m..

Day 5 and the following days of CNY, college started people get busy. I still do some visiting with my friends though but the plans are quite random. Until day 15, I courted the value of my Angpow this year. The amount are rather surprising compare to last year. Happy but it still not enough to cover my college which had been bugging me. That’s all about the CNY year 2011, hope my passion to continue this blog will not fade away again so soon. There are stories to tell…

Night of Fire. 9/1/2011

Being unable to withstand waiting for some pending result that already negatively hinted to me, I finally made up my mind to make it clear once and for all. Knowing that something must be done in this very night, I rejected all the invitations by my fellow friends just to make sure myself well prepared for tonight.

On 8p.m. sharp, I went out to get my dinner and also to scout on whether is she at home or not. My prediction was right, her car wasn’t around. As the place was super near to Mr.Lian, I asked him out for dinner as well. Unfortunately, I didn’t notice that my car has already out of fuel and it broke down in the middle of the road. Luckily I still able to steer it to the roadside and did not cause any traffic problem.

I called Peter for help and luckily his respond was a positive one. Around 20 minutes later, he sent us a litter of petrol and dashed off as he’s in a rush. Funny but true, that litter of petrol is still insufficient to start my engine. Being out of choice, we have to trouble Alex’s brother to fetch us more petrol. That another litter of petrol barely helped to start the engine and we proceed to the nearest petrol station with caution. Credits for Peter and Alex’s brother.

We went for our long waited dinner after that. The time was around 10p.m. when we were about to leave. I scout on that area again while fetching Alex home, her car was there! I stopped by Alex’s house after he went into his house. I texted the particular her (let’s call her “K”) saying “I got some souvenir for you from my Langkawi trip” and I told myself in 10 minutes time if she reply, I’ll make that move; if not, I’ll just go home. Fortunately, she replied faster than I expected saying “you may come now”.

Nervous I am while approaching her resident, I reached her house gate and I gave her a miss call. She came out with a new hairstyle(different from the last time I saw her) that fascinated me, an evolution that I had expected. I handover the chocolate that claimed to be souvenir but actually it’s just an excuse tool I use to meet her. I know I was there for a confession but I just don’t know where to start. I was so nervous to the level I hardly can voice out.
I asked her whether can I have the chance to get along more with her.
She replied “Har!?(confused or barely listen what I said)”
I asked again, then I see her dad peeping us from the inside of the house and flee away, she got distracted from my question.
I gone nuts and asked her in a much straight forward way: “I wanna court you! do you accept!?”
She took a deep breath and start talking saying that actually she already noticed about this but it would be ridiculous if she just came to me and says that she doesn’t like me. She explained that she believes her timing isn’t here yet and she’s not ready to commit herself into a relationship. She added that it’s not like I’m a jerk or something that’s why she can’t accept me, it is a fact that both of us just know each other not for a long time only and there is an age gap, so there isn’t much we can actually talk about. We no longer work or study at the same place and the chances we meet are so low. Even if she really did give me a chance that night, how long the relationship can be maintained is another problem. She doesn’t want to be in a relationship simply because one of the partner desperate for it. She advised me that it is better I stop my feeling towards her before it gone too deep and it’s not worth it since she doesn’t feel the same way. “I’m just an ordinary girl and nothing’s special about me, there are still plenty of girls that is better and prettier than me out there, who knows you might found a more suitable one?” says K.

Somehow, I agree with what she says. That’s why I didn’t bind my mind set to what I desire and let it go. It is a relieve to know how she actually thinks about this case and I no longer bind to the uncertainty. I went back with an understanding feeling and miraculously I did not cry. It is an honour for get to chat with her outside the gate like that but I guess that is the first and also the last time it would happen. Still, I think I’ve learned a lot that night. I still can smile to her while saying good bye.

However…

Days later, I felt so lifeless all the time no matter I at home, work, or college. It is more likely that I’ve lost the aim of my life and nothing around me seems interesting. A question that I’ve been asking myself for a long time…

“There are people who I care and they ARE important to me, but for them, who am I?”

The song that playing in my PC when I finishing this post:
Ba Ai Fang Kai – F.I.R

Happy New Year 2011

A lot had happened in 2010, but I can’t really find the right time to spit everything out here. Here’s some quick summary of the happening of my life after the last post I made.
-My beloved FE-320 was dead again. I miss those days when  blog was packed with photos.
-Ride on an aeroplane for the very first time. Went Langkawi with my fellow colleagues. Had fun there, totally free from stress.
-Had both Christmas and New Year eve at friend’s house doing Steamboat and BBQ.

Lastly, say goodbye to 2010 and let us welcome year 2011. All the best to you guys and have a great year ahead. =D