Night of Fire. 9/1/2011

Being unable to withstand waiting for some pending result that already negatively hinted to me, I finally made up my mind to make it clear once and for all. Knowing that something must be done in this very night, I rejected all the invitations by my fellow friends just to make sure myself well prepared for tonight.

On 8p.m. sharp, I went out to get my dinner and also to scout on whether is she at home or not. My prediction was right, her car wasn’t around. As the place was super near to Mr.Lian, I asked him out for dinner as well. Unfortunately, I didn’t notice that my car has already out of fuel and it broke down in the middle of the road. Luckily I still able to steer it to the roadside and did not cause any traffic problem.

I called Peter for help and luckily his respond was a positive one. Around 20 minutes later, he sent us a litter of petrol and dashed off as he’s in a rush. Funny but true, that litter of petrol is still insufficient to start my engine. Being out of choice, we have to trouble Alex’s brother to fetch us more petrol. That another litter of petrol barely helped to start the engine and we proceed to the nearest petrol station with caution. Credits for Peter and Alex’s brother.

We went for our long waited dinner after that. The time was around 10p.m. when we were about to leave. I scout on that area again while fetching Alex home, her car was there! I stopped by Alex’s house after he went into his house. I texted the particular her (let’s call her “K”) saying “I got some souvenir for you from my Langkawi trip” and I told myself in 10 minutes time if she reply, I’ll make that move; if not, I’ll just go home. Fortunately, she replied faster than I expected saying “you may come now”.

Nervous I am while approaching her resident, I reached her house gate and I gave her a miss call. She came out with a new hairstyle(different from the last time I saw her) that fascinated me, an evolution that I had expected. I handover the chocolate that claimed to be souvenir but actually it’s just an excuse tool I use to meet her. I know I was there for a confession but I just don’t know where to start. I was so nervous to the level I hardly can voice out.
I asked her whether can I have the chance to get along more with her.
She replied “Har!?(confused or barely listen what I said)”
I asked again, then I see her dad peeping us from the inside of the house and flee away, she got distracted from my question.
I gone nuts and asked her in a much straight forward way: “I wanna court you! do you accept!?”
She took a deep breath and start talking saying that actually she already noticed about this but it would be ridiculous if she just came to me and says that she doesn’t like me. She explained that she believes her timing isn’t here yet and she’s not ready to commit herself into a relationship. She added that it’s not like I’m a jerk or something that’s why she can’t accept me, it is a fact that both of us just know each other not for a long time only and there is an age gap, so there isn’t much we can actually talk about. We no longer work or study at the same place and the chances we meet are so low. Even if she really did give me a chance that night, how long the relationship can be maintained is another problem. She doesn’t want to be in a relationship simply because one of the partner desperate for it. She advised me that it is better I stop my feeling towards her before it gone too deep and it’s not worth it since she doesn’t feel the same way. “I’m just an ordinary girl and nothing’s special about me, there are still plenty of girls that is better and prettier than me out there, who knows you might found a more suitable one?” says K.

Somehow, I agree with what she says. That’s why I didn’t bind my mind set to what I desire and let it go. It is a relieve to know how she actually thinks about this case and I no longer bind to the uncertainty. I went back with an understanding feeling and miraculously I did not cry. It is an honour for get to chat with her outside the gate like that but I guess that is the first and also the last time it would happen. Still, I think I’ve learned a lot that night. I still can smile to her while saying good bye.

However…

Days later, I felt so lifeless all the time no matter I at home, work, or college. It is more likely that I’ve lost the aim of my life and nothing around me seems interesting. A question that I’ve been asking myself for a long time…

“There are people who I care and they ARE important to me, but for them, who am I?”

The song that playing in my PC when I finishing this post:
Ba Ai Fang Kai – F.I.R

Intention

Every action taken are based on intentions. Another post inspired by Samthoris the Great! A conversation happens at KFC Meru last Tuesday between Sam, BoonKiat, & me. Sam says every intention were never 100% used for a good deed or a bad one. It would either much percentage of the intention were meant to be good or bad but it wouldn’t be in full force, there must be a part of it meant the other side.

For an example, people organizing charity events. Do they really do it just for charity? Maybe yes, 80% of it. The other 20% might because they want to create fame for their organization or polish their name in the community. Those who donate, they probably beliefs by contributing more for charity the Almighty one might create a better life for them in the future or in the their next life. Some case of charity they might just collecting some fund for their own organization, only part of the donation collected will be use for the community.

Another example, a guy treat a girl very nice. Buy her stuff, pay her meal, drive her everywhere, whatever. The intention of that guy I can think of is he’s trying to “devour” her. Sounds bad, but who knows? He might simply doing all that because he’s rich and got nothing better to do?

As for myself, why would I ask Sam out for lunch most of the time? Is it that simple see whether have he taken his lunch yet? Undeniable, I need lunch and I got no transport to get myself something to eat. So I need him to be my driver. Not only in this case, sometimes when we have a night outing, I’d would definitely ask Sam whether like to tag along or not. To have fun together, yes! Major of my intention said so, but there’s still part of me hoping Sam would tag along so there’ll be no transport problem. Well, sorry for all the trouble but still humans are selfish. It’s not easy to do a 100% good deed.

How to measure the percentage between good and bad in the intentions? Sam says each of us have ruler of our own within us to measure it. In different situation, different judgement will be made by different peoples. Like my family suggest I go to work for another while first, the positive intention of them might be hoping I can get more working experience faster rather than keep bounding myself behind hoping to get studies again. But the way I measure is this way, house need more financial support, if I continue working might be able to help a little by settle the electric & water bills. But then again, humans are selfish, my intention were more to negative say why should I spend for them? My money, I should spend myself by pushing myself to study. But then think again, things like this can be adjust I suppose, let go and don’t be so stubborn. Measure the situation again, things aren’t as bad as it seems after all.

Yeah, things aren’t meant as what we seen sometimes. It’s more than meets the eyes!(still having Transformers fever) It just depends on how we measure the situation actually, so when people around you did something to you whether you like it or not, try to measure their intention in the way which wouldn’t make the situation more tense. =)

Benji-Sama Has Fallen… Again~

Well, the results is out, to those who were worried and concerned about this, Thank you. The results turned out to be not so fruitful. “Dukacita” again. But I guess there’s nothing can be done anymore since the UPU has decided this for me. Appeal again? maybe not, it’s damn troublesome as I need to send all my documents and certificates to the related IPTA again. What’s in my mind now? Seek help from HICT, easy. Yes I do frustrated over the time I’ve been wasted, but look at the bright side, I get to stay in Klang, nothing much will change. Sam might says this is another test sets by the god for us, maybe He wants me to choose my own course to study but not to let the government to decide for me. LOL! Bon Odori coming soon and I might get to have another blast that time! Wee~!! JOM~!!! XD

As An Interactor

Few days ago, one of my junior from Interact Club last time(let’s call him Andy) requested to borrow the Interact Club uniform from me. Well, of course I do lend him my uniform while I went to retrieve Alex’s STPM certificate. The uniform that I’ve been hanging in my cupboard for quite awhile, looking back at it somehow recalled back lots of memory as an Interactor.

I joined Interact Club back then in the early 2005. The reason I join is because I saw lots of my friends been joining it under HerSeng’s encouragement/seduction/promotion. And yes, I’ve joined it, how can I resist? so many of my friends joining right? The way HerSeng promoting the club was like I.U.Day(International Understanding Day) is coming soon, lots of man power will be needed, a very recommended certificate will be given to those form 5 students after graduate in high school, lots of activity will be held and we can have lots of fun, and not forgetting we’ll always have join activity with other schools who under the same district, this mean there’s will be lots of girls waiting for us to peep!! Well we start by attending the meetings held by the Board of Directors. Most of them were form 6 students and those I have deeper image would be the TaukeSoh – Rachel Huan, secretary – PingLing, V.Secretary – WengMay, I.U.Director – Melinder, H.R.Director – PuiThing, and the most active without position form 6 member – Jeremy Leow. As for the preparation for the coming I.U.Day, several task has been divided to different groups. Jeffre and me been sent to the Opening Ceremony Department under HerSeng’s request and yes, he’s the boss. Meanwhile, he also take in charge for the performance part conducting Alex, BoonKiat, Edward, Jason, ShengYao, & TuckLong in 2 production. Gan, WaiChung, & Edwin have their another own production on the go as well. Back to the O.C.Department, our objective is to create 2 19ft long banner to hang on both side of the stage and a big chinese fan. Everything was HerSeng’s idea and as the theme would be Dynasty, we have to illustrate a dragon and a phoenix on the 19ft banners.

This is the Dragon banner we’ve made. Yeah I know you would want to ask how come the dragon don’t have scales? But at least this dragon’s body length IS longer than that ShenLong you saw in the Dragon Ball Evolution movie! Damn disappointed when I saw that ShenLong comparing with that one I watch in animation. Cut the crap off, about the phoenix, I did not save any picture of it meanwhile all the original copy don’t know where to be already. And the big chinese fan, dont’ have picture of it also but it took us time and effort looking for the material and figuring out our own way to form all the wood together and decorate it. We went through a hard time in calculating the length of the stage to set the fan and banners up to it. Install strings everywhere to make sure the fan stay still through the whole event. Thanks to those who helping out as well although you guys were in other department.

On that day(I.U.Day), our opening ceremony went almost well but screwed up a little. When that guest from Rotary Club launch the opening ceremony for us, Jeffre & me released the banner from both side under HerSeng’s order. But somehow the fan did not open up as the way it suppose but luckily we did a very stable string base for the fan to came back to the way it was. The whole event went very well, my fellow friends performed greatly and earned the audience’s applause. Somehow that time I was feel like, damn~ they get all the best part… Haha! But it doesn’t really matter now as everything has over for such a long time.

A picture of us in uniform. Saw me?

ACS or LaSalle I.U.Day I forgot, venue is the hall of S.I.T. The photographing skill of that fella who snap this picture, cannot be accept. A brat from ACS or LaSalle I remember.

The most unforgettable I.U.Day I’ve attend before, Convent Klang. With the theme… Famine… It really made us starving there. The event starts by 7.30a.m and ends by 4p.m but they bring us to refreshment only after 3p.m!! Didn’t take breakfast that day, imagine how could we survive through the whole event. Think again, how about those who can’t even get to have a proper meal at those war country? We did learn something that day… Appreciate our food.

Meanwhile, the most unforgettable joint event among the school from Klang District is… We get to ride on Starcruise for absolutely FREE!! Under the Rotary Club guide. Although the ship is not moving, visiting such grand looking ship would have be very proud already. Even tea time snacks were prepared for all of us as well, with class! With just a snap of finger, the waitress there will serve us drinks!

With the well leading from the B.O.D and the support from all the hyperactive members, we-Interact Club of HSK has earned ourselves the title of The Best Club of the year!! Our glory days!! That is so far had happened in my year 2005 of Interact Club.

In year 2006, We paid a visit back to HSK as we’ve been invited to the I.U.Day that year.

A few months after that, I back to HSK for my form 6 studies and join back this club expecting more of those fun days to return. The seniors guide us well in the beginning, Thanks to Joan the President, Eddy the Vice, May the secretary, and JianMing the Treasurer and the other seniors. But it’s different when it comes to the fight for position against each other with new students who came from other school to study form 6. I still remember that time I was interviewed by 4 seniors at the same time, normally the others were handle by 2 of the seniors only. My seniors having hard time to decide it. In the end, I get the post as the International Understanding Director. Everything did not went well in this year, lots of activity we trying to held were end up cancel by Pn.Prema. Damn frustrated that time but luckily we still can get the preparation for the next year I.U.Day to move on by the end of year 2006.

Year 2007, been getting along quite well in the B.O.D already after so many meetings and joint events we had together. Early of the year was still busy for the coming I.U.Day as we did last 2 years ago but this time things we handle was more meets the eye in year 2005. Several approval were needed to use the Putra Hall, need to set a precise date for the I.U.Day, Refreshment, Publicity, Multimedia management, EVERYTHING! Myself as the I.U.Director was the chairman for the event of the day need to make sure everything goes smooth but luckily all my subordinate were being so helpful. Alex been going all out to help me out but everyone thinks that he trying to show off by grabbing all the responsibility from me, pity~. Been troubled BoonKiat so much especially in transport issue. Vmae done her secretary job fast and efficiently and we got no problem for the hall booking I guess. Backdrops and hall decoration were splendid thanks to Peh. XiuYang in charge of performance but I bug in quite a lot, I requested HerSeng to conduct a dance performance for us, and thanks to LihYing who went all the way to Subang to get the Yukata costume. Nicely done souvenir by HuaYing’s department. Booklet made in time thanks to Ranjani. Multimedia slideshow by GuatTat & ChewWai. And lastly the emcees, Alvin & Marie! Back to the part I said I’ve requested HerSeng to conduct a performance for us, those who took part of it stayed back at school almost everyday after school to practice. I appreciate all your efforts but although some of them will be missing in action sometimes for whatever kind of reason but I don’t really mind now.
On that very day(I.U.Day 07), damn nervous as I need to give an opening speech. Already screwed up in the beginning as I did not really prepare well for my speech, last minute work and having phobia on the stage that time. I don’t even know what I’m talking while on the stage. Quickly move on to the next agenda. We have Fashion Show, Dikir Barat, Karate, and Slideshow coming up next. After the refreshment, it’s time to show what we’ve been training for all the time. Don’t really feel like posting this video because I did screw myself a lot, but if I don’t upload it in this post, when will I still find a suitable time to post it? Hope you guys like it…

Thanks to LihYing for recording this video of us.

A picture of all the dancers.
 
Thanks to TuckLong, WaiChung, Jason, & WengSheng who showed up as a guest. A picture of the dancers + form3,4 members + TuckLong.

A picture with all the members + seniors + teacher advisor. I’m the Dai Gor in the middle!! There goes the I.U.Day 07 and overall, it was a failure as we did not really make any profit because the sponsorship department shows a terrible, horrible, & vegetable result. I was once told them that I will treat them all KFC once we made this I.U.Day a success. End up I treat them nothing after that, that’s something that I’ve been felt guilty for that time.
Nothing big happen in my Interact life in that year after that, but well we still attend some activities such as Hari Ko-ko and Fiesta Craze.

The finale, in a blink of eye the day to let everything go is here. The 2007 Joint Interact Installation was held at KEC. I still remember that day was the report card day at school. Here’s some picture taken that day.

Fooling with our jewels. Me(I.U.Director) & XiuYang(Treasurer)

Wearing it for the last time…

The out-going board, no more jewels. Frontline(from left): KokWah, XiuYang, WaiLoon, Govin, Alex, Alvin, Ranjani, Vinod. Behind(from left): Me, VeeMae, SweeHeng, Mohana, Marie.

XiuYang(ex-Treasurer), Alex(ex-H.R.Director), & me(ex-I.U.Director)

Say no Evil, See no Evil, Hear no Evil. Me + Alvin(still the Editor after that) + Alex.

With VeeMae(ex-Secretary). All the pictures that day was sponsored by her. Thank you…

Well, guess that’s all I can talk about my life as an Interactor. Get to learn a lot and know lots of great people here. In the end, this is what I’ve earned.
A certificate in year 2005 and another one in year 2007.

And my name tag.
Viva La Interact!

Don't Simply Scold Others

Really dislike those fella who would simply scold others without making clear of the situation. Especially those elders who thinks that they are above us and whatever they say is correct. A very recent case which has just happened yesterday although the victim isn't myself, it's my brother instead. One of my aunt have her house moved and of course, lots of furniture were meant to dispose as my cousins have already bought new furniture for their new house. For the sake of not wasting, the idea is to move those furniture to my house. So, my aunt arranged a lorry to move those unwanted furniture. I took a day leave that day under my bro's request and we went to my aunt's house to give an aid to upload the furniture to the lorry as man power were wanted there. We were told that the lorry will be there by 12pm, we reached there about 5-10 minutes before 12. But as we arrived, no lorry can be seen but our cousin brother came to us saying that everything has been done and the furniture has been sent to our residence. Woot!? Then why are we here? Since we're already there, of course out aunt welcome us to visit their new house. We were nicely served by our aunt, even lunch has been prepared. But my cousin brother been keeping himself quiet and went out. We did not notice anything funny, we visit every corner of my aunt's new house, then we went home to adjust the furniture which already sent to our home. Until my bro received a call from our cousin sister who living in Singapore. My bro got pranked on the phone, saying that we're being irresponsible for bad timing, the lorry came by 11am but we arrive by 12. Want the furniture but help nothing out. Caused injuries to our cousin brother as he got everything done and scratched himself. And not even a 'Thank you' after getting what we want.
Hell!! It's not our fault that the lorry came early themselves and we already reached there earlier than we've been told. It's not like we did not wanna help, everything has already been done. Being not satisfied for blind helping and did not make a sound in front of us meanwhile back-stabbing us from behind, such hero our cousin brother are. It's not that we don't wanna say thank you, my bro keep being pranked in the phone and don't have the chance to do so although he meant to say it from the beginning he received the call. How can she keep scolding by just hearing what her brother said? She haven't make clear of the situation yet. My bro is so pissed off as my cousin sister hang the phone up right away after finished pranking and my bro got no chance to explain.

Conclusion, please make clear of the situation before you start scolding anyone. This is so gonna be hurt for those who you scold although he/she is innocent. Be rational...

A Visit to Jogoya

Regarding to 1 of my previous post in August "Should I?", the day has finally came as I've promised Peter to celebrate his belated birthday there. I off my work ealier by around 4 and hopped on to Peter's Kelisa and off we go to StarHill Kuala Lumpur. The atmosphere in the car was expected to be strange for me as Peter is the only guy I know in the car. I'm being quiet in the whole journey there. We reached StarHill but we need to take the back entrance as the front entrance need to do some registration procedure which seems to be troublesome. Still have to gather up some of Peter's friend and yes, more strangers for me. Some of them I might have met before in my primary school but I don't really have their image in my life. Gladly, Hexter Fong was there. This mean among 10 of us, I only know 2/9 of the participant.

Enough introduction, time to feast!

Fried stuff such as Tempura Prawn and many more.

BBQ stuff (1)

BBQ stuff(2)

Stuff that will served after cooking it for you. Order it by putting a given clip into the bowl in front of the meal you prefer.

The all you can eat Sushis~

Hot pots~!

Well, the only 2 fella i know in the group.

As Peter busy to serve the other friends of him, I stick with Hexter.

Round 2, Wasabi craze~!

Peter was tucking the wasabi+chili powder into the sushi for a gaming session. Whoever lose, eat it!

And serve himself right?

I get the jackport as well but I don't have the picture of myself eating it.

Round 3, the all you can eat deserts!!

Plus the all you can dig Haagen-Dazs Ice-cream!!

We feast again!!

Alright, finishing soon, it's time for a group photo session.

Start with the guys only.

And with everyone together. The girls only? Not really know them so I skipped it.

And the bill...

With souviner was given...

StarHill night mode...

Some night view of Kuala Lumpur...

Overall, it was a worthful meal with just RM101.00 per person, you can eat all you can for 4 hours inside with such fine food. I have got some great discovery that day, Thanks to Peter to invite me to such great dinner. But somehow, I got some confession to make. I don't like the atmosphere being a stranger and feeling uneasy. And on the way home, while talking in the car, don't really know why I just don't like it when he talks about career stuff. Yes, I know he did not mean anything harsh and probably giving me some advise hoping that I would success someday. He did try to convience me to buy insurance from him again. Anyhow for myself, if friends come out enjoy, please throw away everything about working issue. I would never want to be one of the pawn of career chess game of any of my friend or want them to be mine. Working society makes a person change? Our topic has came a distance as we living in different enviroment? Or maybe I'm thinking too much again? I hate to think about these...

Friendship has been put on the test for walking the path of heaven?

A friendship for 9 years. Hope you all the best in your life anyway.

F x 3

F x 3 = FFF = Financially Fucked-up Family.
In 3 cases below...

1)Having a salary of 2000 a month. But it's spent on nothing but covering the interest for credit card debt. For the interest only, it has taken up the whole month salary. It seems like it's a never ending debts. Ouch~!!

2)Having a salary of 1200 a month. 50% of it has been used to cover up all the bils and necessary expenses. The rest of it has been used to create miracles from places such as Toto, Magnum, and 3D. No savings can be fund.

3)Being a newbie on the working frontline and a salary of 1700 a month. A 1000 for the usage on his petrol & toll passing. Being the Mr.Standing on Top of Everything had himself fully utilized when using the rest of his salary. Whether he did save for himself or not, I don't know.

While for myself, having a salary of 900 a month. Other then spending to have fun hanging outside with friends which doesn't really seems very costy, no money can be seen in my bank even I have been worked for 9 months. Where is my money?

In such situation, I'm somehow feeling doubtful about whether I still can continue my study or not. Frankly, who can I rely on?

p/s: to those who don't really have the similiar situation with me yet still complaining about how jerkful their family is, I FUCK YOU! You should be blessful that your family did not causing any trouble for you and still covering up your expenses. The next time you see your family, hug them and say I LOVE YOU and thanks for everything they had done to make you such a great person today. Appreciate your family before it get fucked-up...

Screw Me

It's a public holiday and I'm being a bad boy today.
My mom ask me to go help out my uncle which is my ex-boss but I turn up having Project-D with my fellow Brotherz.
Not being helpful at all for my ex-boss but I don't really care.
It's a holiday and I should spend my time for Me, Myself, & I.
Screw me~

Back home, I've planned to go out for a night tea with my friends.
I finish my dinner in a rush at my grandmother's house which is just next door to me.
While stepping out of her door, I've been shot by my grandma with her machine-gun with the assist of my aunt.
"You just came here and eat then go back everyday"
"You never really wanted to sit and chat with me"
"You rather spend your time at your mother side grandmother house than being here"
"You have hanged out whole day outside and still wanna go out later"
"I jealous"
"I 80 years old already still cook for you all, you should be thankful"
"I have became enemy with your uncle for cooking for you all"
"I am the one who raise you up all these while"
It's not that I'm not appreciate all the efforts that you-grandma have given in making such a big guy now. But is that necessary to say words in this time? Although you're old but can you stop being so conservative? Do I chat a lot with my mother side grandma? Did I ask you to became an enemy for my uncle? I'm 20 years old and do you still have to investigate wherever I go? whatever I do? whoever I'm being with? What are you jealousing about? And the way you speak those words was totally not sweet. I can do nothing but to wait until you finish all your words although it wasn't nice to hear. This world ain't about getting back how much for how much you have given. Don't challenge my endurance until I show you disrespect.
I really wish I can have more time to stay at home with you.
I really wish I can learn some cooking skill from you.
Unfortunenatly I only got 24 hours a day.
So please be understanding.
Screw me~

By escaping from my dad and grandma, I just went out and ride on a black Myvi which already waiting me outside and flee from all the troubles for a moment. Now it's makes me feel like wanna live somewhere outside and being independent for a moment. I don't feel happy with the way my elders speak to me at home.
Screw me~

Confession of An Isolated Member of VAD43

During my time as a Red Cresent Society member from HighSchoolKlang, I was so impressed with all the mega events organized by the Volunteery Aid Detatchment 43 with the assistance of Majlis Exco Belia. The most unforgettable event would be the Kem Tutti Fratelli 2005. As the committees of Red Cresent High School Klang, we do enjoy our RC youth life to the max...

We get screwed for not controling the words we speak, be so happy for not getting the last place of competation between the school during the camp, and got something haunted Sam for such a long time until now. I got no photo to tell the situation that time so I've made this...

I seriously miss those days but I guess the time wouldn't turn back eh. After my secondary school life I still can't let go those joy and excitement I used to during my RC youth life. Hence, I've decided to join this volunteery team in order to preserve the joy from those days. I did try to drag my good old committees to join along but they already started their college life and Sam is the only one who can fool along with me in the beginning. Later then, Sam lost his commitment for unable to foreseek what he wants and being an inactive member due his troubles to get a transport from 17miles of Kapar to Klang for every meeting. Left myself alone seeking for a new gang there. Luckily I still manage to find some ex-KU students to tag along for every meeting. And soon, we have been chosen to be part of the organization of the Kem Tutti Fratelli 2006 as 1 of the facilitators. I've learned quite alot of things and have great experience with them. And I do proud to be part of them. I even get to see myself in the newspaper for the 1st time for joining the organization.

But as time goes by, I received complains from my mom saying that "Volunteering job makes no money" and all the over-concern theat something bad might happen to me everytime I'm out for their activities or duties by my grandma. End up I always cut down my VAD43 activities with the excuse "I'm preparing for my STPM". And the last event which I've joined them would be the RC Nite 2006.
The dark-side of me somehow says that they always welcome new members for they in need of man power and some sponsorship kind of support. And somehow realised that I'm not the only one being 3G there. Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone there for most of them came with their own gang. During year 2007, I somehow got myself really busy for all the Ko-ko activities in my form 6 life and the preparation for my STPM. My ex-KU gang has deactivated themselves also and sometimes I don't really feel like being in the crowd. As I listen to the advice by one of my senior who used to be one of the committee of Majlis Exco Belia 2003. So I was like totally deactivated myself in this team.
Until year 2008, I attended the first VAD43 meeting of the year which happens to be my last one. They have come up with 5 new slogans.

1. Commitment
2. Punctuallity
3. Respect your leader
4. Respect each other
5. We are family

This is what I got to say regarding to the slogans above. I'm doubt enough with the commitment that I can give for I just get a new job, So I've decided to isolate myself in silent and being active no more. Punctuallity are nothing without commitment. I still respect you all although you guys probably would hate me for not committing anymore and it's sure great to be part of the family. And the Head Quarter of Red Cresent Society of Chapter Klang has burned down as what I've told in previous post in April. There goes, is it the end for my volunteering days? I used to say yes but since I've failed in applying for IPTA and suffering in this total boredom, somehow I'm hoping that I can return to the team one day.

So what has inspired me in making this post? It would be last Saturday night that end up no activity but sitting in front of the computer doing something which is time wasting enough... Friendster surfing. I happens to trace back some of my friends which I know through my volunteering days. Some been working already, some has entered college, and some has even get married. Anyhow, hope you guys will have great days ahead.